well, today.

woke up at 10:30.

got ready.

cashed my check and got gas.

got home, sean came!
took him to don pablos in mesquite. weee!

then, went to petco or whatevers in rockwall, to buy his new puppy a doggy tag. its badass. its got flames on it and stuff.

then we went to that honda store thingie, to look at dirtbikes. yeah, not my cup of tea, but he looks hott sitting there on them. mmm.

anyway, then we went back to seans to give his puppy his new tag and ended up staying a little while to watch american werewolf in paris? i think was what it was called. it was pretty cool. then came back here to watch along came polly. hehe.

we sumo wrestled and jumped on the bed and stuff. muahaha.

he just left.

tomorrow! he's coming over after work. yay yay!
i love sean.

things are turning out nicely.
things are looking up.
things are gettin better all the timeeee.

<333333
brittany

i think i'm about to make a new xanga.
i'm getting tired of this name.

la laaa.

i'll let you know though. mkayy.

new xanga.  <-- click.

well, today..

i went to taco bell with ashlee!

sean came over at 2.
hung out til about 4.

went back to his house.
aww, he got a new puppy. it's so cuteee.

then uh, went to watch john and this other dude ride their dirtbikes. hmm, i was bored and was being eaten alive by ants. and sean was complaining about not having his.  ):   but, all in all it wasn't that bad.

went back to seans, hung out some more.

and now i'm here.
missing him already.

tomorrow means more fun with sean. yay.

Currently Playing Too Bad You're Beautiful By From Autumn to Ashes No Trivia see related

i think everyday my mind changes about what goes on in this relationship.

maybe he has me wrapped around his finger. i don't know.

but, someone asked me today..

xxxxxx: why is your heart broken? pretty retoricle question but just curious.
brittany t 029 3: because i want something that i'll never ever have, so i spend my time trying to make what i have, into what i want, and it's not working, because, you can't change people unless they're willing to change, and so far, all i've been through, no one is, its funny cause i asked myself that question yesterday, and figured all this out. i guess i have to stop thinking about me and what i want for a little while, and see what i have. maybe i'm taking him for granted as much as he is me. you never know, i just can't see it. so, i'm just gonna.. stop. and see what happens for a little while. i think i'm just hurting myself.
xxxxxx: its not self-centered if you want your own boyfriend to spend time with you, not to lie to you
xxxxxx: every girl and guy wants that
brittany t 029 3: i dunno, it was one time, but it's true that one time made me lose all trust in him. and it's not always that he doesn't WANT to spend time with me, he just can't. as bad as i want him to, he just can't. he doesn't always have the money it takes to buy the gas to get here, he's not 18 (and even if he was.. it wouldn't matter still) yet so it's not like he can't NOT listen to his parents when they say no..

anyway, so. i guess he has a point. so do i.
maybe right now i am too involved with what i want.
and it's not fair to him.
or anyone.

maybe i'm just really confused about what i want.
i don't know.

whatever though right?
i get to see him later.   (:
yay yay yay!

no idea what's going on.
but i get to seeee him.

kbye!
brittany

xxxxxx: btw piggy is a wonderful nickname

thank you. i made it up all by myself. muahaha.

ilovemypiggy.

it's 11:11. make a wish.

i never said i wanted my relationship to be easy.
i wanted to work for it.
i wanted it to be tough.
i wanted fights and i wanted some of the hardest times.
i wanted to have to work for what i had,
and i wanted to earn your love and your trust.

but after all of it.

im beginning to think i didn't want any of it to begin with.

i gave my heart away too easy.
i gave you my love way too fast.
i fell head over heels in no time at all.

just to end up falling on my face, and knowing you don't care. cause you'll just walk away.

this hurts more than that nail going through my eyebrow at daycare when i was 5.

i'd rather go through that again than feel this way.

work at 2. be home way late.   ):

solong&goodnight.

woke up at 2.

went to work at 3:30.

just now got home.

im tiiiired.

kbye.